Week of emo!

Man where to begin. Just been a crazy emo journey this past week. On Saturday I got an sms from a friend of mine who is very dear to me. Well on Friday her brother died in a bike accident. Now I didn’t ask what happened so don’t ask me. Now she lives far away from me so I can really just be there for her over the phone. I phoned her and sent her a couple of sms. Still nothing I can do that can take away the hurt of loosing someone you love. But it got me thinking of death and how I almost lost my own brother in a bike accident. So I have been pretty much down.

Fast forward to Monday. I get a phone call from my uncle and apparently my Dad had a light heart attack in a doctor’s examine room. Jokes about seeing the bill aside, what exactly constitutes a “light” heart attack? Who knows. Now my Dad lives in Kimberley and I am all the way in Cape Town. Alone. No family here. Luckily I have some good friends around which is always a bonus. Now my dad is okay. But they were doing tests and they must have found something cause they rushed him to Bloemfontein to get an opp. Now he has a spring in his heart valve. Apparently this helps the valve to close (or open?) and helps the blood flow regularly. Great stuff, and as we speak my Dad is on his way back to Kimberley, fit as a fiddle. Well fit enough to be out of hospital I guess. Which means he is fit enough to be out of danger. So yeah that has been my week of emo. I basically spent most of my time either in bed or on the net just waiting for the phone to ring. This lovely cape town weather is also perfect for it.

It is over now, and I can continue my life. Great Success!

sunspots on a damaged mind

Well I have calmed down considerably since my last post. Don’t want to punch the monitor anymore. Though, this might be because it is my own personal monitor and not works. But I don’t tend to dwell on things. All I know I am kind of sort of feeling better.

I can’t seem to sleep though. This is due to my shift work screwing with my internal clock. No worries though. I am young. I can take it. I can’t wait for this weekend though. Was a friend of mines birthday yesterday and he is celebrating on Saturday. I am only joining the party at ten due to work but it isn’t really a party without me anyway.

In other news, I have finished “The Madness Continues”. Will most likely look for a new book some time during the day. I am going to canal walk later. What an awesome mall. I wish I could live there. Just hate all the people that are in my way though. The world would be so better if we got rid of all the strangers, Who is with me? Wait, that sounds a bit Xenophobic. Which is a touchy subject for a South Africans off late. Leave it to us to attack something we are afraid of. And who said we don’t have any balls?

I also got Pokemon Diamond today. And if you are asking yourself why a grown man is playing pokemon in his free time, the answer is simple. The game rules, plus I might have been dropped on the head as a baby. Plus my mom smoked when I was in the womb. My dad was in motorcycles accidents a lot before I was conceived. Hmmm, I love the smell of self-defamation in the morning.

Stuff about stuff and stuff

So yeah I am picking this up again. Probably won’t last long again so don’t hold your breath. At least I don’t change my URL every time. See I am a considerate friend. Whatever.

I have been feeling mad all day. This isn’t really something I do. I never get mad. And I mean mad as in angry btw. This seems to be related to the fact that I am training a new guy at work. It isn’t like he is making me mad though. I mean he seems brighter than the normal okes. Just I don’t really like meeting new people. He sings with the radio. This also pisses me off. Not even loudly. Fuck it, I guess I am just a big woman after all.

Otherwise life has been great. I go out. I get drunk. I meet people. I am enjoying life. This is good right? I just need to adapt to the fact that I have a lot of people around me these days. I made a new friend. Her name is Bemused Tinuviel. She is married btw. Before you get any weird ideas. Coolest couple I have ever met to tell the truth. It like they were made to be my friends. Yeah I know, I am very self centered. But since I don’t like to talk about other people’s business I am not going to elaborate. They are just cool. Plus she has dogs. I love dogs. Even though I am slightly allergic. I say slightly because it isn’t a matter of life or death. I can play with dogs. I just shouldn’t touch my eyes afterwards. Which probably means it isn’t even an allergy. Just me, being a dumbass.
I have also gotten a bass instructor. So I am a lot better at playing the bass then I used to be. Not good or anything. Just better. But I also found out that the neck of my bass is warped and I am in need of a new one. Happy fucking days. That is another two grand for the one I want. Will have to wait I guess.

I am reading. Which is also good. I have probably read more this year than any other year in my life. I have finished “The colour of Magic”, “The alphabet of Manliness” (A must read for all men everywhere), “Spud” and I am currently busy with Spud the madness continues. The mood to read come and goes. Meaning I finished Spud in mid April and then started with the second one. All of May I had no intension of reading. Just didn’t want to pick up the book.

Seriously I am sitting here and I just want to punch this screen. Maybe I need to get laid.

To Whom it may concern

I am off. Enjoy

Napoleon Dynamite Dance

I looked high and low and found this finally. The dance scene from Napoleon Dynamite. Best scene in this movie. Thought I would share



DANCE!

Nothingness

Well today I did nothing. Well I watched tv mostly. Just chilled. Slowly but surely starting to feel human again. Sucks that I have to go work tomorrow. But that is how the cookie crumbles. Atleast I get to see the people I work with again. I wonder if they missed me...

The Office season two finale

Spoiler if you haven't seen it yet. But it such a great end to a great series.